So the next step on my "returning to education" journey is to take a math placement test. Despite all confidance in my ability to do well in college, the second time around, I find the old habit of "disliking" math tests returning in full force. It doesn't help that my husband has his Bachelors of Science in Math and doesn't get the "not liking" math thing.
As I study all the formulas, and remember what I knew once upon a time, I find I can't stop thinking about math! I'm dreaming equations, waking myself up and having difficulty getting back to sleep with equations.... it's insane. But I can't help it. I find myself sucked into the math void, pouring over problems and loosing time.
It's a whole different approach then when I was younger. This time I really want to succeed because I have a clear goal in mind. I know what I want to do and what I need to do to get there. It's a good feeling really, because I can see myself as a naturopath and midwife, I know I can do it! Sometimes it seems painfully repetative, but I know it's worth the end result.